It's 5am and I can't sleep

I'm annoyed cos I woke up too early and now I can't get back to sleep. This is going to screw up my whole day, oh well.

Since I have been to the end of the internet and back and I've basically watched everything foxtel can throw at me what else is there to do but blog?

It has been a while which is generally bad.

I had the realisation during my I can't get back to sleep phase.

There are two kinds of me, 1. Is a needy emo bitch who needs attention and lets people walk all over him and 2. An arrogant all knowing and all powerful god who is in awe of his own awesomeness.

Unfortunately No1 has been dominant for maybe 9 months now and really dominant over the last few weeks, I realise he comes out when things aren't going too well. When my stocks are getting raped, when poker is going badly and when people are frustrating me. It is obviously some kind of fear based mechanism.

No2 is the opposite, when things are going well I feel I have control over my life and can express my opinions without giving a shit. I like this guy way better and right now it is good to have him back.

So what has been happening in my life? Well I deleted facebook and myspace. I thought it's about time. I never got into facebook and myspace is just full of fake boring people. I've basically just been focusing on poker and watching about 12 hours a day of tv (online poker is mine numbingly boring that i need a distraction). I'm finally getting back into the poker groove after a very long time so soon I'll be making big bucks again.

Everything else is going well, my stocks are up and the business is doing well.

Handed out about 9000 flyers for our mother's day promotion which was a pain, I wont be doing that again. But at least we are having a big month.

I'm also keeping my place clean!!

That is about all, I think it is time to go back to bed.

Good Night Internet